goodbye 2008 in less than 24 hours.
hello 2009.
hell yeah, hope that it'll be a better year..
alot of drama in 2008.




i seriously don't wish to go through them again.
counting down to 1pm!!
omfg.




HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHES~!!

it's 2 days to 2009.
so.. what are your resolutions this brand new year?


i've found something funny, so i thought that i'd just share:-


Sometimes I need what only you can provide: your absence.

The trouble with her is that she lacks the power of conversation but not the power of speech.

A good listener is usually thinking about something else. (HAHA NICE ONE)

Every time I look at you I get a fierce desire to be lonesome.




have a great week!

hehehe. i dont know if today's a good day or not.
apparently, i've gotten a stupid hate entry about me, and cant even spell my name properly.



there goes my patience.
it's show time.

i met brandon and vivian.
for some reason, i flared up at brandon.
was supposed to go down to drink last night.
reckoned that the news hit me late, thus now, i'm still feeling fcked.
seriously.. can anyone tell me why?




if life ain't as bad as what i went through when i was 17.
then why the fck?




okay, i'll stop my nonsense.
i still have the weekend to get over it.
i mean... to be happier.

i'm sorry, for not being able to be there for you when you needed someone.
i'm sorry, that i have to hear such a news thru others.
i'm sorry, for not being able to remain calm when i knew of what happened.


rest in peace is the only thing that i can say.
its only been 22 years and you are tired.


rest well and bon voyage.
i'll see you next life, you'll still be my friend.

work sucks.
but soon to be with better days.

about four hours more to a new environment.
i hope that everything turns out fine.

more and more political?
i hope not..
:(



i'm still in search of that perfect job.
i dont mind starting as assistant again.
i dont mind that low of a pay again, coz i know that such bad times wont last.
but.. i find myself changing.



i am to be said to be despicable, in a way, i can do anything to get what i want.
in a way, i'm proud of that.
in another way, i'm not.

its been a long long long and fcking tiring weekend.
work was usual.. but its the books and questions that are getting harder.
law.
omg.
and it made me feel so flawed.
:(




i try not to take MC for one month..
coz during the self apprasial thing, there was this stupid section stating,
"3. Managing Resources Utilises company’s assets (time, money, materials, people, IT, service functions, etc.) to accomplish work objectives"




obvious enough, i've been utilising my leave for my cursed exams since march 2008, June 2008, September 2008 and lastly for the lil' getaway in early October 2008.





i told myself that i wont further "utilise" my leave.
coz i still need it for my dec 2008 (this upcoming law paper) and for next year!
okay.
procrastinate again..




its like forever and ever, but in the end, never.
sounds good.




ah i seriously hate work.
back then was a totally different attitude.
goddamn.



lastly, its friday friday friday!
long weekend!

omg omg omg.
its FRIDAY!



but fck, i lost my goddamn biz law question papers.
WHOLE STACK!


nb!

man, i'm trying to self appraise.
its damn hard filling up the stupid form, like seriously.
i'm so very serious.

i miss, what i used to have.
the friends, the stuff but never the ex gfs.
okay, perhaps just that longest one.



its her birthday month.
on the day also marks the significant 11th month i have walked through with my partner.




when i was with her back then, on my current's birthday in August marks the siginificant 11th month with her.





is this pure coincidence or what?

dont really fancy gucci.
but........
i think that it looks the best among all skins for today.

i decided that the previous skin was too girly and fckingggg shit need to modify quite abit.




so i'm back to this purple skin..
AGAIN.

this is dumb.
saw a lovely hello kitty skin, and before this dumb template, i was attempting to modify some cannot-make-it burberry skin.



ah.. what a waste of time.
and i dread thursdays.



tomorrow is fullerton night!
finally.

everyone still alive?
its september.. soon.



so let's get some september loving..
:)

ELLO!
i'm like finally back.
i have abandoned this and shifted to another.
privacy matters to me after all.

i swear that my fcking brother (BE GLAD THAT I STILL CALL HIM BROTHER NB) is a bitch.
no wonder he calls himself a bitch too....



said that my room smells coz of the smoke? his room? without smoking, it smells nowhere better too!



i wont commit suicide, coz i still have yet to see them die infront of me, one by one.
=)

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think Im kinda scared
Cos I dont want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
Its nothing to you


I might look through your stuff, for what I dont wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if youre all mine
Im a little paranoid, from what Ive been through
Dont know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (and I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think Im kinda scared (but Im scared with every touch)
Cos I dont want to lose you (cos I dont want to lose you)
If you really really really care (if you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
Its nothing to you (its nothing to you, you)

hello.
no doubt about it, i'm gonna be single for a month soon.
=D
one month and counting.
i'm loving my single hood.
=D