oh well.
hols here i come!!
this blog's gonna be down fer a wk i reckoned.
hols hols hols!!!
=D

dinner tonight at pb's place.
pb went jogging and we met at my working place?
the other one was waiting at the bustop.
HAHAHAH. so as you/we can see, joey and i were late. coz of the bus.




joey's place:
dinner.
THANKS ALOT!
=)




slacked, rotted, chatted, dozed.
they sent me to the bus stop.
LOVE THEM!
it was drizzling somehow.
thought of certain stuff, certain peeps.
still haven pack my luggage!
i miss you.
take care.
meet up soon.

sunday was fun.
woah, tiring.
went jogging with them.
they came over.
i still haven start packing my clothes.
LAZY.




i need to ko soon.
well.

bad day.
bad bad day.
zzz.
SCREAMS*




hopefully tmr will be better..
know whats the hardest emotion to surpress or repress?
agony.
mixed agony.





compared to other feelings, this is the ultimate of all.
ULTIMATE.
yeah, i still feel the anger now.
zzz, major major turn off.
zzzzzz.
I REALLY FEEL LIKE KILLING YOU!
zzzzzzzzzzz.
just f uck off off off.

blog blog blog.
no mood also.
town with brandon.
hahaha.
gotta work later.
its just another saturday i guess.






thinking back about the saturdays i used to look forward to..

well, of coz i know who was the one who left me a comment?
-.-''
outta point.
got home not long ago.
supposed to meet cousin today but yeah her phone's not here yet..
sigh.
tmr i guess.
YAWNS.
chilly night.
nothing's much, dont feel like blogging much.
but that doesn mean that i dont feel anything.
if you get what i mean.

regrets? that is SO AINT me.
back then what happened? only i know.
coz i was the one who took the papers.
did i try my best?
will anyone know?
i dont wallow in self pity, coz if i did, i wldnt even be able to talk to anyone today.
coz of the things i've done, only me myself and i know.
I DINT WALLOW IN SELF PITY.
and despising people.
i dont. perhaps i used to, till i met failures, somehow.
what rights do i have to do that NOW?!




and i dont do that anymore.
NO!!!
i hate talking to some people now.
fancy talking abt my past.
what rights do you have?!
hardwork?
luck?
HAHAHA.




i dont wish to waste my time anymore.
sweets, dont feel sad alright.
you can prove them wrong.
=)
me? i dont need to.
as long as i'm accountable to myself.
MYSELF YOU KNOW?!
yeah, you dont have to know.
coz only i need to know.
just fuck off.




to hell i go,
to hell we'll go.

ha.

headache. headache. headache.
went fer a run. YES, a run!
tired.
im gone.
=)

carve your name into my arm.
instead of stressed, i lie here charmed.

You,
doing that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces like you always do.
And you, don't mean to be cruel,
you never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through.

*And I try and try to forget you girl,
but it's just so hard to do...
everytime you do that thing you do.

I,
know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday.
Cause we, could be happy can't you see,
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you and keep you here with me.

*Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
but it's just so hard to do...
everytime you do that thing you do.

I don't ask a lot girl (I don't ask a lot girl),
But I know one things for sure (know one things for sure),
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore!!

(interlude)

Cause we, could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me.

Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new. (someone i hate. thanks.)
And if I know you you're doing that thing,
Every day just doing that thing,
I can't take you doing that thing you do..

every me and every you.

anime.
ultimate boredom.
woke up late..
was in a blank when i just woke up.
since when i am not like this.
or rather i feel like this.




typing something.
stomach's growling.
haha.

tiong with roy.
ate, rot, talked.
joey came down.
rot and talked mainly.



kinda screwed up somehow. me of coz.
but then.. fer now,
that'll be the last thing on my mind.




freaked out kinda easily nowadays.
kinda.
so many things in hand at work to finish.
ugh.
that'll be good, time will pass faster..





roy said, another mth or so its gonna be xmas!
well. time seems to really fly nowadays when you least notice it.
good or bad?
i dont seemed to be blogging down what i wish to blog.
or rather, how am i feeling.
GOSH, THIS IS SO DAMN WEIRD.
good morning. its a sunday.

last night was FUN FUN FUN!
i love you all!
=)


but at the same time, SO TIRED.
i'm going off now.
good day!




i feel weird.
goddamn fucking weird.
i wondered whats wrong now.

i'm on my own.
i dont wish to explain things.
and I AM NOT kicking a big fuss outta it?




i never depsise any frds of mine in my life before.
not even annie, the one who betrayed me fer love.
snorts, but then i just did, two nights back.
i told a frd tht i am way too disappointed and i ask her what she wants from me exactly? its SO TOUGH being her frd.




and she copied me, saying tht OH I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN TO YOU?!
gosh, outta my life she goes.
OUT OUT OUT.
kick a big fuss with lynn fer all i care.
lynn will be OUT with you too.




YOU, the first frd i ever despise my whole life.
the first and the last.
the first who kept proving me tht I DONT WORTH BEING UR FRD and
I AM NOT OF ANY USE, NOT TO ME?!
hahaha, joey, sounds familiar?





been trying to get her out, and now i've finally succeeded.
wont be home on friday night.
i cant wish fer next wk to start.

good morning..
yawns. was up at 7plus in the morning.
ytd..
joey's place:
joey, ice, me.
awhile later..
town:
ice's gf, joey, me.
talked, slacked, waste time.
but thrashed out alot of shit.
and mw..
HAHAHA. -.-''
finally..




my place:
dine, joey and me.
they rested, i ran ard?? ???
dinner together at i forgot where.
and i got stepped by uncle and he doesnt know.
WTF AND I WENT OUCH.
-.-'' cock eye. i happened to wear sandals.





left dine and joey.
uncle's car:
uncle, ivy and i.
stupid uncle was playing MV in his i dont know what car.
S.H.E COLLECTION MAN. WTF. god bless.
and some songs made me feel so zzzzzzz.
not forgetting.. passed by millions of places.
ecp was one of them. and i thought of certain people.
sigh..




final destination:
changi. but we ended up at changi's swensens.
LOL.
ate, waited.
finally boss is there.
jus one of her fucking luggage = half of ME.
or even half and a little more.
and i had a fun time swayin ard with it, all the way to the car.




then.. went to i dont know where.
supper, porridge, etc. yes, EAT AGAIN.
reached home at two plus?
crashed. i think that i dint bathe. thats why i woke up at 6plus, and bathed and i'm online now.
i am really so tired!
when can i stop complaining?!
WHEN?!
i wished that i know alot of things..



this past wk have been busy busy.
busy with millions of stuff.
till i got so tired and i dint feel like blogging.
i just know that i was running away..
ran and ran i fell and died.
MISERABLY.
haha.


hmm..

i just cant face you.
or anyone.
not at all.
no?
dont know why.

i was saying.
my frd sent me this msg.
at times the world gives her so many reasons to hate but when tht happens,
she'll stop and think,
how can she possibly do that when i'm part of the world.



i thought of something.
i cant seemed to find any reasons to feel better,
but millions to hate this world and..
one of the main reason is i'm HERE.



goodnight.

ive typed sth just now.
think fer too long, got signed out.
the entry is gone.

stupid.
STUPID!
-.-''