this is absolutely madness.
i'm just so fcking tired..



wanted to blog more about today but thinking about it makes me so.. tired.
tmr ipo, luckily i aint doing it otherwise i dont think that i will concuss straight away i get home.



STILL, the workload over at my group just keeps accumulating.
we are seriously lack of manpower.



anyone wants to join my firm??

just got the pink bomb the moment i stepped into the office..
23rd June.
I wonder how many more weddings + house warmings are there?
I AM GONNA BE SO BROKE SOON!
argh.




then about a month later, there'll be another wedding!
then following by a house warming.
was telling the gers not to get married so fast.
one of them was telling me that she'll put the house warming after CNY.
already planned so far!
goodness.




then again, i have no idea where will i be during that time.
one more day to my leave.

fcking weather's driving everyone nuts.
is this singapore?
or some soon to be third world country?
the weather's ever changing..



and the injury.
save me.
no, kill me.



i need to get my motivation (by any means) back so that i can study in peace.
and im racking my brains for june's events.
a few big events coming up!
EXAMS.
NEW JOB.
BIRTHDAY!

well, today i left home with peace.
but i realised that i forgot to print out my answers for my questions..
HOW TO STUDY TMR?

man, its been so fucking hectic for me recently.
currently am still in office.
and its been days since i last touched my timesheet.



BOM's lessons are over. i gotta rely on my own.
BE's last lesson's on Monday.



and today i had so wanted to stay at home.
BUT MY LISTCO KINDA SCREWED UP.
i just cant believe it. and it really happened.
i didnt wanna stay, but i cant.
at least now i've finished up my listco and subsi, i cant be any happier.



thank you jy and ds.
=)

Stat audit for Entellium on Wednesday morning.
those flow of thoughts are still in control.
restless.
mentally taxing.





its worse than any slow suicide.

my god.
its been so mofo long since i've worked this way.
(not exactly, alright i'm lying)
in any case, i finally survived through this week!!
but the worst is yet to come.





my group is so empty now.
i need to cover for so many people's arses.
at times i seriously feel like screwing everyone there.
verbally screw i meant.



plus my studies.
previously, i was feeling downright shitty.
at least now i would dare to say that it MIGHT.
(50-50 beats better than downright failure)




its gonna be another long day tmr..

its a beautiful lie..

still at work, heading home soon.
counting down to certain things.
it took me ALOT to do this but i guess.. i just gotta be heartless, be a bitch.



and so.. i did.
moving outta my comfort zone.
for once.
hahaha.

highly fckingly annoyed.
stupid people get away from me.
ARGH.




i was about to blast earlier on. still i worship myself for being able to keep my cool.
just like what sea said..
fckee.

but still there are seriously certain assholes out there that i want them dead.
just like the way someone out there wants me to be dead badly, desperately..
time will tell.

certain things are really not my fault. and yet i gotta apologise.
and seriously if i were to bear any grudges.
honestly, i wont be talking to anyone at all.
afterall, i feel that the whole world owns me something.
why must they do stupid things to make others' lives hard?





tell me why?

looks can be really deceiving.
aggressive but mild;
the feeling of being taken for granted has never left.
cold but empty;
it was eons yrs before twenty.
insane but logical;
i aint that typical.







reality vs virtual;
which will be the winner?







i will figure it out soon.
after all;
the truth is not out there or with anyone.
it is..
in your mind.

any idea of how i feel.
when we talked about changes within a short period of time.
if you dont, i can paste the chunk of conversation here.





we talked about alot of stuff.
but know something? we dint create any troubles for you.
and its coz of you thus my mentality have changed, within sucha short period of time too.





this kinda transition is fast and irreversible.
good and bad. its all in your mind.

gu niang of the gu niangs.


certain things are really so amusing.

for the first time in my life.



i just realised that i might be having pms.
thus, those nonsensical thoughts.



hahahaha.

despite the distance btw us, i held you close to my heart.
but you were the one who changed.
i have told you how much you meant to me. but i guess those didnt penetrate deep into your mind.



you left anyway. silently. till that night we talked online.
time flies, changes were obvious but i didnt change. not when how you know me then.



all these are making me have second thoughts towards sensitive topics like "responsibility" and "moral values".


p/s: this entry has nothing to do with any of my ex-es or what. its just to a frd whom i really loved.

i feel like a god man.
i doubt that anyone can still be like me and keep my cool after despite all.
but i exploded anyway. just that its internally.


stupid bank officer vs stupid incharge = waste of my resources.

fcking hell.
i will remember by heart, by hard.


...
too agonized that i am now depressed.
gosh.

its chinese new year after all.
lesser and lesser clubbings. after all i've got no time to really rest.
past few days were quite a blast. thought i didnt participate in the mahjong sessions..



i am so tired.
who isn't?

i'm on my way to hell.
but oh well, it feels worse than hell.

can it be april soon?
please please pretty please?



i wanna learn freehand!
and perhaps illustrator.