current addiction..

i miss lee! his voice is damn powerful!

i didnt know that its been long since i last blogged.
i've gotten outta tht firm.
not the initial firm, but the later firm.
the nostalgia in me of the first firm decreased alot.



after some wonder woman told me that they cannot afford to hire me.
i was turned off, totally.
and the nostalgia dies off..



my dearest sl must have been busy.
my new workplace only have msn..



one way or another, i still miss those people.
excluding a few.......



bitch!

im so tired..

dont know whats wrong with me lately.


think that i finally got some nice advise from sunshine last night.
which is good.


there are times like that i will get lost.
someone to scold me and pull me back into the reality..

its been a week since i last left the firm.
been trying to get used to the new firm.
its my career afterall.
been listening to stupid and emotional songs. so.... alot of memories.
hahahha. talked to juliet last night.
i feel that we've both grown up. and i'm really happy.
;) keep in touch.



天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
bing mei you geng zi you
I did not gain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
The sourness from the air

嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
Smelling out our distance

一幕锥心的结局
yi mu chui xin de jie ju
A scene of of heartbreaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
Like breathing, unable to stop.

抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowed diary in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
pressed dry our memories

那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer


你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past

被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
A love that lacked oxygen.

粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary


我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine.

只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le zen me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time


我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine

只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It's just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory




this song. rather overwhelming for me.
overwhelming. and my previous firm. my gawd. kill me.
previous firm, tons of memories.
colleagues, work, clients, and lastly my personal life.
certain people i'll think of too.


(if you happen to read this entry, this song is for you.)

its me its me.
guessed it.
sorry, i dont mean it.

sick;
mood hasn't been better too.
got quite fcked up by certain things.






perhaps its not you, perhaps its me.
certain things, certain people.
the thought of them turns me off.
dont know.
dont want to know.





i didnt want to feel the pain again too.
so.. dont.
let me feel it again.

this is absolutely madness.
i'm just so fcking tired..



wanted to blog more about today but thinking about it makes me so.. tired.
tmr ipo, luckily i aint doing it otherwise i dont think that i will concuss straight away i get home.



STILL, the workload over at my group just keeps accumulating.
we are seriously lack of manpower.



anyone wants to join my firm??

just got the pink bomb the moment i stepped into the office..
23rd June.
I wonder how many more weddings + house warmings are there?
I AM GONNA BE SO BROKE SOON!
argh.




then about a month later, there'll be another wedding!
then following by a house warming.
was telling the gers not to get married so fast.
one of them was telling me that she'll put the house warming after CNY.
already planned so far!
goodness.




then again, i have no idea where will i be during that time.
one more day to my leave.

fcking weather's driving everyone nuts.
is this singapore?
or some soon to be third world country?
the weather's ever changing..



and the injury.
save me.
no, kill me.



i need to get my motivation (by any means) back so that i can study in peace.
and im racking my brains for june's events.
a few big events coming up!
EXAMS.
NEW JOB.
BIRTHDAY!

well, today i left home with peace.
but i realised that i forgot to print out my answers for my questions..
HOW TO STUDY TMR?

man, its been so fucking hectic for me recently.
currently am still in office.
and its been days since i last touched my timesheet.



BOM's lessons are over. i gotta rely on my own.
BE's last lesson's on Monday.



and today i had so wanted to stay at home.
BUT MY LISTCO KINDA SCREWED UP.
i just cant believe it. and it really happened.
i didnt wanna stay, but i cant.
at least now i've finished up my listco and subsi, i cant be any happier.



thank you jy and ds.
=)

Stat audit for Entellium on Wednesday morning.
those flow of thoughts are still in control.
restless.
mentally taxing.





its worse than any slow suicide.

my god.
its been so mofo long since i've worked this way.
(not exactly, alright i'm lying)
in any case, i finally survived through this week!!
but the worst is yet to come.





my group is so empty now.
i need to cover for so many people's arses.
at times i seriously feel like screwing everyone there.
verbally screw i meant.



plus my studies.
previously, i was feeling downright shitty.
at least now i would dare to say that it MIGHT.
(50-50 beats better than downright failure)




its gonna be another long day tmr..

its a beautiful lie..

still at work, heading home soon.
counting down to certain things.
it took me ALOT to do this but i guess.. i just gotta be heartless, be a bitch.



and so.. i did.
moving outta my comfort zone.
for once.
hahaha.

highly fckingly annoyed.
stupid people get away from me.
ARGH.




i was about to blast earlier on. still i worship myself for being able to keep my cool.
just like what sea said..
fckee.

but still there are seriously certain assholes out there that i want them dead.
just like the way someone out there wants me to be dead badly, desperately..
time will tell.

certain things are really not my fault. and yet i gotta apologise.
and seriously if i were to bear any grudges.
honestly, i wont be talking to anyone at all.
afterall, i feel that the whole world owns me something.
why must they do stupid things to make others' lives hard?





tell me why?

looks can be really deceiving.
aggressive but mild;
the feeling of being taken for granted has never left.
cold but empty;
it was eons yrs before twenty.
insane but logical;
i aint that typical.







reality vs virtual;
which will be the winner?







i will figure it out soon.
after all;
the truth is not out there or with anyone.
it is..
in your mind.