more and more political?
i hope not..
:(



i'm still in search of that perfect job.
i dont mind starting as assistant again.
i dont mind that low of a pay again, coz i know that such bad times wont last.
but.. i find myself changing.



i am to be said to be despicable, in a way, i can do anything to get what i want.
in a way, i'm proud of that.
in another way, i'm not.

its been a long long long and fcking tiring weekend.
work was usual.. but its the books and questions that are getting harder.
law.
omg.
and it made me feel so flawed.
:(




i try not to take MC for one month..
coz during the self apprasial thing, there was this stupid section stating,
"3. Managing Resources Utilises company’s assets (time, money, materials, people, IT, service functions, etc.) to accomplish work objectives"




obvious enough, i've been utilising my leave for my cursed exams since march 2008, June 2008, September 2008 and lastly for the lil' getaway in early October 2008.





i told myself that i wont further "utilise" my leave.
coz i still need it for my dec 2008 (this upcoming law paper) and for next year!
okay.
procrastinate again..




its like forever and ever, but in the end, never.
sounds good.




ah i seriously hate work.
back then was a totally different attitude.
goddamn.



lastly, its friday friday friday!
long weekend!

omg omg omg.
its FRIDAY!



but fck, i lost my goddamn biz law question papers.
WHOLE STACK!


nb!

man, i'm trying to self appraise.
its damn hard filling up the stupid form, like seriously.
i'm so very serious.

i miss, what i used to have.
the friends, the stuff but never the ex gfs.
okay, perhaps just that longest one.



its her birthday month.
on the day also marks the significant 11th month i have walked through with my partner.




when i was with her back then, on my current's birthday in August marks the siginificant 11th month with her.





is this pure coincidence or what?

dont really fancy gucci.
but........
i think that it looks the best among all skins for today.

i decided that the previous skin was too girly and fckingggg shit need to modify quite abit.




so i'm back to this purple skin..
AGAIN.

this is dumb.
saw a lovely hello kitty skin, and before this dumb template, i was attempting to modify some cannot-make-it burberry skin.



ah.. what a waste of time.
and i dread thursdays.



tomorrow is fullerton night!
finally.

everyone still alive?
its september.. soon.



so let's get some september loving..
:)

ELLO!
i'm like finally back.
i have abandoned this and shifted to another.
privacy matters to me after all.

i swear that my fcking brother (BE GLAD THAT I STILL CALL HIM BROTHER NB) is a bitch.
no wonder he calls himself a bitch too....



said that my room smells coz of the smoke? his room? without smoking, it smells nowhere better too!



i wont commit suicide, coz i still have yet to see them die infront of me, one by one.
=)

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think Im kinda scared
Cos I dont want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
Its nothing to you


I might look through your stuff, for what I dont wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if youre all mine
Im a little paranoid, from what Ive been through
Dont know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (and I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think Im kinda scared (but Im scared with every touch)
Cos I dont want to lose you (cos I dont want to lose you)
If you really really really care (if you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
Its nothing to you (its nothing to you, you)

hello.
no doubt about it, i'm gonna be single for a month soon.
=D
one month and counting.
i'm loving my single hood.
=D

current addiction..

i miss lee! his voice is damn powerful!

i didnt know that its been long since i last blogged.
i've gotten outta tht firm.
not the initial firm, but the later firm.
the nostalgia in me of the first firm decreased alot.



after some wonder woman told me that they cannot afford to hire me.
i was turned off, totally.
and the nostalgia dies off..



my dearest sl must have been busy.
my new workplace only have msn..



one way or another, i still miss those people.
excluding a few.......



bitch!

im so tired..

dont know whats wrong with me lately.


think that i finally got some nice advise from sunshine last night.
which is good.


there are times like that i will get lost.
someone to scold me and pull me back into the reality..

its been a week since i last left the firm.
been trying to get used to the new firm.
its my career afterall.
been listening to stupid and emotional songs. so.... alot of memories.
hahahha. talked to juliet last night.
i feel that we've both grown up. and i'm really happy.
;) keep in touch.



天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
bing mei you geng zi you
I did not gain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
The sourness from the air

嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
Smelling out our distance

一幕锥心的结局
yi mu chui xin de jie ju
A scene of of heartbreaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
Like breathing, unable to stop.

抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowed diary in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
pressed dry our memories

那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer


你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past

被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
A love that lacked oxygen.

粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary


我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine.

只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le zen me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time


我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine

只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It's just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory




this song. rather overwhelming for me.
overwhelming. and my previous firm. my gawd. kill me.
previous firm, tons of memories.
colleagues, work, clients, and lastly my personal life.
certain people i'll think of too.


(if you happen to read this entry, this song is for you.)

its me its me.
guessed it.
sorry, i dont mean it.