i was in town, alone to get my stuff.
earlier on a frd called when i was having my lunch.
asking if i wanna meet.
i told her that i'll get back to her. of coz i will, somehow, in a way or another.
but that frd.. just kept calling till i flared.
flaring inside.





it's her fucking offday today.
she had an appt earlier on. she cancelled it coz of me.
seriously, is she dumb or wad?
i'm not her mother or some VIP to her.
and i was thinking i'm only meeting her if she's on the way to town OR already in town.
know why? coz i dont wish to own her anything too.
and i thought that it'll be good to only call her when im outta my house, heading down to town.





seriously, all along she NEVER ever spare a fucking thought fer me. while me? to me its like wasting her time although i know that she wont mind coz she's mad and too free or fer what fuck reason.
and so i msged her asking if she still wants to meet coz im out like NOW and its like a waste of her time to ME.
fuck it, called, didnt pick up, msged her, she replied by saying:
i dont feel like meeting already. enjoy and take care.
HAHAHHA. PLS LAUGH ITS ALL SO AMUSING.
i replied; okay, fine.





and so she thought that i was angry. in a way i wasnt. coz she's not up to it to annoy me.
just that i dont like her fucking attitude.
she msged me at 7plus apologising.
I DONT NEED THAT. its just that.. if you cld get my fucking pt earlier on, you cld had prevented wad i msged you on both msn and sms.
FUCKED UP.
seriously fucked up? is my english too lousy to be comprehended by mankind?
and yeah. i didnt twist and turn and i just fucking get straight to the point?!
why do i not have such problems with my ex classmates back then?
WHY?! we thrash things out. somehow. and yeah we dont need much explanations.
AND YOU JUST FUCKING HAVE TO MAKE ME EXPLAIN.
oh so, there you go.
a taste of my dissatisfaction with a lil twist of agony.




all these got my discrimination started.
the discrimination stopped fer quite awhile back then.
and yeah once it's started, its kinda unstoppable. unless i want it to.
but apparently, those nonsensical morons just showed me more reasons to discriminate.
more reasons NOT to stop discriminating.
being me. i know that you must have what it takes to discriminate.




at least i dont make people explain like SHIT.
you told my frd once that if you see my partner, you'll punch her or sth.
OH DO I LOOK LIKE I GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ABT YOU?!
youre mad. insane. paranoid. ALL IN THE WRONG WAY MAN.
and yeah its seriously like all the way, to hell.
at least she've got what it takes to discriminate. and i wldnt wanna be labelled as stupid coz i mix with people like you around.
my surroundings.
oh whatever.






you asked me to stop my hurting words.
at least i spared a thought fer you somehow.
you didnt even and you thought that youre so fucking smart and do things your fucking way.
smarter. SMARTEST.
yeah right.
you said that youre hurt? are you demanding an apology? you said that you dont need.
you told me that its alright. whats the pt of telling me?
I DONT INTEND TO APOLOGISE ANYWAY.
get that clear.
i'm not angry at all as i'm typing out my rants.
JUST TIRED OF PEOPLE ASKING ME TO EXPLAIN.





EXPLAIN AND EXPLAIN AND EXPLAIN.
go and die man.
enough said.
i'm not a sinner. not to you.
you can fucking stop your morning calls.
i had troubled you fer too long.
and the one that i need will NEVER be you.
and swts said that since when she isnt not irritating.
HAHAA.
=)
goodnight.