i'm having my dinner now.
been having too much nonsensical thoughts on my mind.
just thought that i need to get them off before my head burst.
and burst right into your face.





there are certain things i just just fucking hell dont get it.
why is my intention of doing certain things are always not seen?
and the original intention get so distorted when its being conveyed to the opposite and i dont even know if i should kill myself or kill i dont know who.




i dont know how to explain..
dont know where to start from.
ITS SO TIRING!
and i swear its hell when you get back negative/funny/weird/nonsensical responses..





a frd called me just now. he wasnt serious at all, was quite annoyed by him..
told me this.
"why get so serious? life's never serious?"
got quite taken aback by his words.
perhaps towards everything now i shouldnt be so serious.
then again, i thought of work..
its just so aint me.






left work late, went home late too.
dinner's late. and fuck it i got my flu late too.
OH YEAH.
a lil crankiness kills the boredom and emptiness away.
at least fer the day.