never thought that memories will fade with time.
they do, over the years.
perhaps the new events had got those memories replaced and i dont want them to stay..
they're gone.
fer good.
one good example.. may.
then again, i'm contented with the way things are now btw us.


i remembered saying that;
scarred fer life.
it was meant to be.
and i wanted them to stay..
but time passed.
it made me realised tons.

-.-'' scarred my fuck!




as the year is coming to an end.
i jus think back of the events and all.
perhaps too much happened that i actually forgot.
was thinking last night.
it'll be good if one day i wake up and forget abt everything..
there's a term fer it.
selective amnesia.





my views. before anything screws up, just want to get my views across, so that when things cock up i dont have to explain myself again.
i dont like explaining.
noone likes too.
but fer certain exceptions in life i did.
exceptions.
there wont be anymore.





my game, my rules. i broke my own rules. fer valid and worthy reasons.
still i feel the sense of self disappointment.
but still..
i'm happy with the way things are now.




oh yes, people, pls ask me directly if you wish to know if i'm alive or dead.
in a way, respect me.
ask and i might consider answer..
and yes, profiles doesnt reflect my life.
it might, may reflect how i feel deep down.
a certain side that i dont wish to appear in reality.
just a possibility.




and certain things i hate to see, to feel or have.
an underground affair.
i aint a slut.
i aint a bitch.
i'm not up to it.
take it i'm mad.