2006.

its 2006..
a brand new year.
does it mean anything to you?
to hell with the new yr resolutions.
HAHAHA.




as i grow older.. i realised that i will think more.
more scenarios, more possibilities, and lastly, more feelings.
SERIOUSLY JUST FUCK THE FEELINGS MAN.
here i am.
feeling the same way all over again.




something i typed a day or two back..

ME;
long term r/s was NEVER on my agenda,
self proclaimed workaholic,
in fact,
i'm just trying to drown myself with work and earn more bucks,
so that i can pamper myself to fill up the emptiness..
and redundant feelings,
I KEPT WISHING THAT I COULD JUST FEEL LESSER.
lesser feelings, lesser thoughts.
lesser probabilities, lastly, lesser troubles.
troubles from my actions, fer my actions, root of all these shits..
MY FUCKING FEELINGS.


yeah. bottom line.
lesser feelings, lesser thoughts.
LASTLY, LESSER FEARS.
why? coz you'll never think of them.
the feelings and whatever that causes the FEARS.




and guess what? fer the past near TWENTY YEARS of my life.
i thought that i've been doing things in a logical way.
though i am just not academically inclined.
my thoughts, though fucked up, but i try to do things in a very logical way.
too logical that i can go bonkers.
BUT fer the year 2005.. got pretty screwed up, especially with my thoughts.
thus my actions. my words. my attitude.
they just make me appeared so.. ILLOGICAL.



and yeah, this year, i'm gonna be back the same old logical me.
HAHA.
new yr resolutions? NONO. fuck them, theyre just consoldolences fer yourself.
its time to sleep.