my eyes are tired.
got home at 8plus, things happened.
(mentally plus the exhaustion)
he was trying to explain certain things to me.
and fer that few mins, my tears kept flowing..
fer that few mins, those emotions and agony were so hard to suppress.
so hard to contain within me and it went outta control.





a few mins later, i was trying to absorb the explanations.
it did worked, somehow.
and mom was nice.
since when she isnt?
fer that few mins, alot of things hit me HARD.
so hard that those tears were there fer that few mins.





fer that few mins, i hated this world, every single fucking shit thats in this universe.
someone mornic out there was very brainlessly bold enough to call me during that few mins.
i didnt pick up, but got back to that moron after awhile.
sparable if its something urgent but fuck it! it was something trivial.
OR SHOULD I SAY REDUNDANT?
waste of time...
then certain things happened to that brainless moron.
came to me, i typed whats on my mind.
i was given back the respond..



"WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO SARCASTIC? I THOUGHT THAT I CAN TURN TO YOU AND ASK FER ADVICE BUT YOURE ALWAYS SO SARCASTIC!"
(note, i rephrased it, apparently, that moron's english isnt perfect or should i say, its unreadable. about there)
fuck it, i'm unlike your frds (or rather some frds of mine back then), who'll say this to you..
"i'll always be here fer you" (but they should have added this part)
(when everything's over and fine)
does that make sense?
there i was just now, being there somehow, while doing my stuff.
but you pushed me away.
thats very cool.
i'm not agitated, sadly, moron's not of enough CHARM to piss me off badly.
mind games? i never like them and moron's not up to the position to play them with me.
i never like playing mind games, knowing me fer me, its dangerously sick when i play them.
i feel disgusted by myself too. (back then)





and i finally got my photocopies.
blessing.. one thing lesser off my mind.
my poor shrunk mind.
stonefish.
but a logical one.